“Lord, you know all my desires and deepest longings.
My tears are liquid words and you can read them all.”
Psalm 38:9, Passion
The Bible talks much about desires of the heart. A popular verse from Psalms states:
“Delight thyself also in the LORD; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.” (Psalms 37:4 KJV)
The desire of your heart is important to your Papa. He knows that his children are driven more by desire than duty – which is exactly as it should be. We do not follow and obey Jesus out of religious duty, we love Him because our heart is fully engaged with His goodness.
Desire is like the gas in the tank of a car. If your religion is composed only of duty and drudgery you will be running on fumes. Like a car on a journey, it is likely that you will fall short of your destination. But with desire and delight filling your tank the nature and length of the journey is secondary. There will always be enough energy for the next leg. You will go from milestone to milestone, overcome obstacle after obstacle until your finally arrive.
Prayer is very much like this journey. We set our heart’s desire upon a particular outcome and press our foot to the floor, moving daily toward its fulfilment. Each stretch of road will present different challenges. Some will be overcome and traversed with praise. Others with declaration. Still others with asking. God has equipped us with an all-terrain vehicle called prayer, and not even a mountain can stand in our way!
“For verily I say unto you, That whosoever shall say unto this mountain, Be thou removed, and be thou cast into the sea; and shall not doubt in his heart, but shall believe that those things which he saith shall come to pass; he shall have whatsoever he saith.” (Mark 11:23 KJV)
At times, liquid prayer is required. Stong, heart-rending sobs that bypass our tidy little life and move our soul in ways that are uncomfortable and real. Where the deepest breakings and longings of the heart are brought to the surface.
The Scriptures speak of these as groanings. Yearnings of the inner man that are beyond mere words.
“Likewise the Spirit also helpeth our infirmities: for we know not what we should pray for as we ought: but the Spirit itself maketh intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered.” (Romans 8:26 KJV)
These desires are so deeply implanted, so much a part of who we are as people, that they cannot be neatly packaged into a pretty prayer to Papa. The only way to express them fully is to dare to open the floodgates and spill every ounce of our inner mess before His merciful throne. It is not a pretty sight, but our Father is no stranger to blood and guts praying.
He knows the value of a tear.
So much so that they are bottled and preserved.
“You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book.” (Psalm 56:8)
Don’t be fearful to open your to Papa. To let it all hand out. Come before Him privately and pour yourself out before His throne.
Don’t be concerned with eloquence. God is not impressed.
Don’t hide behind your nicest parts, seeking to preserve your dignity. God sees you naked, and He is never ashamed of your frailty.
Weak as we are, unable to express whats inside, we give way to the crying child looking for the comforting arms of heavens Daddy.
He hears the cries of His people and does not overlook the most inarticulate utterance. He is a heart God, and the language of the Spirit is not one that impresses men. All of the well-formed, rehearsed and reasonable prayers cannot hold a candle to one heartfelt cry.
“Papa, help me to live with my heart close to You, never fearful to say things like they are. Like David in the Psalms, when I come to you I want my inner man to be on display, not shrouded in religious facade. I know that you are not impressed or ashamed by my performance, so I put all of that nonsense aside and simply open my heart wide. Give me your desires, Papa. Let them be planted so deeply within me and take solid root. Let them grow and bring forth abundant fruits for you and for your Kingdom. And this pain, this longing desire, this yearning for home, let me bring it to you with liquid prayers, washing away my frustrations and ushering me into depper levels of trust in your goodness.”
“Child, do you know why your tears are important to me? They signify the deep wells of the human heart. The place I have planted my purposes. My word speaks of eternity being planted in the heart of man. Such vast reality is not meant to be compromised or comprehended in human words. The deepest longings of my heart, the most profound truths and purposes of heaven, cannot be articulated. They are beyond words. Let your heart pour our its pain, and spill forth your dreams. Never be fearful, I will not shame you or turn you away. When the floodgates are opened and your prayers gush out, it leaves a doorway for my Spirit to rush in and bring fresh revelation of my promises!”